A lot can happen in a year | My 2015 http://ift.tt/1OExBK2 @lnohara95 #blogging

This year has been one of the worst and best years of my life. The start of the year, from what I remember, was pretty dull. Alexander and I were only five months into our relationship. My blog posts were pretty lame but I managed to get a few good posts in there - See Archives - random yet funny is what I would call it. 

To this day I still see Bloggers writing similar things, even Lush has become overly popular that I am sick of this word. Pretty Little Liars became this new phenomenon and everyone raved about who A was - who gives a shit? It was some crazy girl program, but who am I to judge? I watch Keeping Up With The Kardashians for god's sake. 

Tea and Cake has also become very popular this year - okay, coffee drinkers, I got your back too in this - I have also been drawn into this obsession. Tea and Cake. Tea and Cake. How British and la-di-da of us! 

I have learnt so much this past year with blogging. There have been dramas with a certain unwanted person; there have been ups and downs with my blog and motivation to keep it going; there have been many many times where I have taken time away from my blog to figure myself and my life out, and to figure out what I really wanted to do with my time. Blogging has always been therapeutic to me, so my conclusion in my breaks, were to keep it going.

Adding to learning so much about Blogging, I have noticed a LOT of copyright breaching; bloggers think they are getting away with it due to saying they have changed it "their way" or "slightly different and original to them," Like - NO. If it looks almost exactly the same, you are using pretty much the same blog post written, or you are trying to pass something off as your own, its COPYRIGHT. I understand there being thousands, maybe millions of bloggers so genres, picture styles, and content may be similar but copyright is when it looks spitting image! We need to be careful out there - noticed you can't right click on my blog? Yeah.... you know why now.

Also, I gave up looking at my Statistics on Google Analytics as I figured I just want to blog for fun, not for the followers and the stats (plus right now my GA has decided not to record any of my stats - a sign?) Blogging began because I wanted to vent my thoughts and feelings down, not for the fame that is almost impossible to get anyway! Cancelling out my daily stats checking really has made me feel so much more free; no pressure. 

Obviously there are Bloggers out there who compete for the glory, but I am definitely not one of those. Who has the time and effort, but also the serious bitchy attitude to try and outsmart and outdo the higher and most known Bloggers in the world. You either make it or you don't. Keep blogging YOUR way and the amount of times YOU want to do each week, but also interact with your readers and followers, and you may or may not make it. 

Life isn't about pleasing or even changing who you are for the rest of the world. You began your blog (if you blog) for you so you could write about your chosen subject(s) not for the fame and money grabbing area of Blogging. I won't judge you for blogging for a career, fame or money, because everyone wants to have a stable income whether that is making it large or small. Everyone wants to be famous, right? 

I did want to be. However, this year I have noticed how horrible of a world it could be with your whole life being judged by no other than lifeless, jealous trolls who want to just shit on your parade out of jealousy. Don't get me wrong, it would be nice to be known for my Blog and my hard work, but then I think about all the hate and I just feel put off; my Blog isn't going to stop being updated because of this small fear. You never know what will happen - I may make it, I may not - it's not important to me.

For those considering starting a blog, I wrote a blogging guide for beginners here. Whether you are choosing to start a blog for fame & glory, money, or just to write down your thoughts, feelings, views, reviews, and other interests, GOOD LUCK! 

As I mentioned at the beginning of this post, this year has been one of the worst and best years of my life. Why the worst? I lost my Nana to Terminal Lung Cancer on May 2nd. I wrote all about her story in Diary Entries here. She was one of the closest people in my life - a second Mum - I told her everything and shared my life with her with no objections. Life without her, still, is so damn hard and I do struggle still with coping; Alexander is always there to hold me tight whilst I snot and drool over his shoulder, but he doesn't care, he always reminds me that tears are just droplets of weakness leaving my body. 

Nana was the only one that knew that me and Alexander were trying for a baby, so only three months later, I conceived with Rhea-Jane. I am a firm believer in the Afterlife and how passed family members can help you with your troubles in life - conceiving being one of them; I fell pregnant shortly after my Nana's death and I believe she gave me Rhea-Jane as a gift. 

Bit of a coincidence you say? Yeah it may be a coincidence, but we all have our own beliefs. Maybe I think this because it gives me some comfort in my Nana's passing. Maybe I like thinking that my baby is a gift from my Nana. Maybe I just don't want to think that once a person passes away, they disappear forever. Maybe I want to believe that Rhea-Jane is a gift from someone so god damn important to me that it makes me tear up from the thought of my Nana's generosity and love towards me.

Rhea-Jane is the best thing that has happened to me this year. I love her so much even though she is not born yet. 

My year has spiralled. My world has been shaped. My life has been confusing. By the end of 2015, I have realised what has been most important to me in life and learnt so much in just 365 days. Life is short; anything can happen. Take what you have and treasure it because one day it will not be there - harsh as it sounds, it's true. Hold tight to your loved ones; treasure every memory; create new experiences; get rid of the evil and pain in your life. 

A lot can happen in a year; things you won't expect, things you will look forward to, and things you will regret. I have had one crazy year. Let's hope 2016 is more kind to everyone and everything. 

I, for one, am looking forward to what this year brings to me; my Nephew is due 19th March and Rhea-Jane is due 4th May. It is going to be one hectic but exciting year for me and my family!

Are you excited for this new year?

After all, we are all human. 

Much love,

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